Die Laughing

I wannna die laughing & everyone’s there. Making a joke in one last act of despair.
I wanna leave em with a smile on their face & a flush in their hearts to take my place.

I wanna die laughing at my own jokes & be the only fag left whose looking for smokes.
I wanna die laughing so that I can retire knowing I kept them all warm with my fire.

I wanna die laughing so loud at the sky 
so all I have left for any “god” is my sigh.

I wanna die laughing with a whole room crying…
shit!
 Now I’ve tipped my hand, ‘cus you know that I’m lying.

I really do hope that the laughter is there, 
But, a “whole” room of people? Eh, who’ll care?
  
nah…

I wanna die laughing at a ripe old age…
with naught but my words left bare on my page.

and… 

If I go sooner, that’s fine my dears. 
Just huddle close & lend me your ears.

I wanna die laughing even if it’s tomorrow…I’ve got a couple gems squirreled that you’re welcome to borrow.

in time…

Don’t gimme credit for laughs reaped from my will. 
Just remember my face when you share them & kill.

trust…

Fame woulda beat me far quicker than sickness. 
So I kept it all tight for the future to witness.
Here I am lying again, cus I’ll miss this. 

Talking in boxes to people I knew.
Time whittling them down to the most precious few.
 
last…
If you hear a laugh in the thunder that sounds like mine.
It’s prolly me worshipping my own goddamned shrine!

I wanna die laughing with a smile on my face

…and

then…

I wanna be done with this place!